Habits

I have had a great day! Jim (loyal and loving husband of almost 3 years now) went fishing with a friend today, he came by a picked him up this morning and I went out to local yard sales today, love yardsales!!! I scored a great chanel purse for only $5.00 and brooke (12 year old daughter) some really cute tops and jeans. My original reason for going was to find ebay items to buy cheap and sale higher, but I didn't find anything that I thought would be ebay worthy, except the chanel bag, and I'm keepin' it! Then I went and bought a cute outfit at Cato's and got my nails done, I debated whether I should get my nails done or get a pedicure, I love them both but couldn't afford them both, my feet need attention but I can do it at home for almost the same results but people see my hands everyday so they won. I stopped to get gas and I saw a help wanted sign on the door, so now I'm thinking that would be a good second part time job to support all my habits like paying the bills, eating and getting my nails done and buying purses! I got "let go" from my other job that I had for seven looooong years at the health department. I did home visits to first time parents to offer them parenting tips and support, I liked my job but it did become quite stressful and I was becoming burned out and quit grouchy with coworkers and sometimes the supervisor but I wouldn't have called her a super-visor but a stupi-visor but that is another story. Anyway, after being unemployed for 9 months, I got a job as a receptionist, its easy and I like it but the pay sucks, therefore I may need a second job to support all my habits :)

PMS

Thank goodness its friday!!! My job pretty much consists of sitting at a desk asking visitors coming into the building I work in to show ID and sign in so they can pass through to where they are going. Today has been extremely slow and I am extremley PMS'ing! There for I have been about to fall asleep-cramping & craving soda & chocolate. Speaking of PMS, I recently I decided to stop taking my Zoloft (antidepressent/anxiety) medication because I was gaing so much weight and I blamed it partly on the zoloft, well, that was a bad idea. I had stopped taking the medication for about two weeks and I became very irritable, bad mood swings, my husband and I was constantly bickering so I asked him, had you rather have a nice fat wife or a bitchy skinny one? He opted for the fat nice one, so I'm back on the zoloft. I think I am going to try to slowly wean myself off of it though, I am taking half a pill daily instead of the whole thing and then eventually I am going to skip a pill every other day and see how that goes. I am looking forward to tommorrow, because my husband is planning on going fishing with a friend, he tells me he hasn't been fishing in probably ten years! wow, even I have been fishing about five years ago. He says he's never really been interested in it much, but he hates to tell his friend no. I am happy about it because I can never get a free moment away from him when we are not working. We have been married for almost three years now (second marriage) and we go everywhere together. I need a break! I've not decided what I will do yet but I am as excited as a lottery winner! (hope it doesn't rain)

Just started this yesterday and already I am addicted! I stole these twenty questions from someday I'll get there, and I think she stole them from someone else...hee hee!

Twenty questions:

1. Peanut butter and jelly or a grilled cheese sandwich? Depends on my mood, but I usually eat grilled cheese most often, love it with onions chopped up on it, yumm! I like pb&j, but I often don't even think about it, hmmm...maybe I'll go home for lunch and have one!

2. Do you like pickles?YUCK! NO!!!

3. Why do you think red symbolizes passion? What do you think of when you see the color red? Do you own very many red articles of clothing?Well, red is typically associated with heat, hot and fire, so I guess that is why passion and of it meaning anger, wow! maybe I am a really angry person and don't realize it because I tend to lean towards items that are red, I have a red wallet and purse and some shoes and sunglasses, and a few clothes, but it doesnt really look good on me so I usually wear other colors and make my accessories red.

.4. What color is your underwear?white - 95% of my underwear is white. I have to 'match' like that...(I also stole this answer from someday)

5. What's on your mind right now?I'm hungry!
6. Do you bite your nails?unfortunately, yes
7. You're stranded on a desert island with one fictional character. Who is it?superman, because he could fly us away from there!
8. Do you daydream?yeah, I guess.
9. How do you like your eggs?over easy and devilled
10. Where did you go for kindergarten?Owsley county kentucky
11. Do you like snow?Hate it!
12. Do you like blue cheese?don't think I've ever tried it, even though I love love love cheese, guess it seems too close to "mold" to me.
13. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?no, just dentists-ouchy!
14. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?Usually pop/soda, sometimes I try to down a little OJ and occassionally coffee.
15. Can you do push ups?not sure, not tried it in a long time-I don't excersize, but I should
16. Do you own slippers?Yes!! Got my first pair ever this year at christmas
17. Favorite color?red
18. Would you be a pirate?no
19. What's in your pocket right now?No pockets today
.20. What were you doing 12 AM last night?asleep!!

Reality is a slap in the face

I will be 40 next january and the reality of it is really stinging. I had a friend that, I remember when she turned 41 about 4 years ago how she reacted, I laughed at her and thought that she was overreacting, I however, was 35 at the time, age, phhh! Big deal, don't bother me none...(yet). So, the reality of my aging set in about a year ago when I first noticed more gray hairs coming in, that's ok, more of an excuse to color & highlight my hair! Then I noticed my eyes where looking kinda tired, that will be ok, I just need more sleep and I'll be good as new! Then, last summer after I got "let go" from my job and was unemployed forEVER I started gaining weight, lots of weight, and I began to feel like I was aging drastically. The reality really set in when I started going to cosmetology school last year, which I've wanted to do for years but never got around to it. By the time I started, most of the other students had parents the same age as me and one girl even started calling me her mom!!! SLAP! So now I am spending day after day feeling fat and old, and I keep dwelling on it and trying to figure out what to do, I don't know if I should try to fix my hair and dress to feel/look younger or does that make me look trashy because it's obvious that I'm not young and should be dressing my age? I try out the older more sophisticated look, I cut my hair to above my shoulders, but I still cannot totally cut it off I don't like it too short, and I try to dress my age, and some days I like it and then some days I look in the mirror and go "wow, do I look old, I gotta get out my hip clothes and jeans!" So, right now, I guess you would say I am in the middle of an identity crisis and I don't claim to have any one certain style. Well, back to work for me!

Cable companies

Yesterday I switched cable and internet companies. I used to have Directv which kept getting rediculously expensive and I didn't even have any movie channels and my internet provider (windstream)was outrageous also AND the DSL was slow (I was supposed to be getting 3 mbps, but it drug along and would freeze up and I was constantly resetting the modem. So I switched to Time Warner Cable for a bundle deal, cable internet (alot faster) and digital cable with movie pack, I am saving about 50.00 a month, it I'm sure there are clitches to their company that I will find in a few months, you never find them until it's too late. So yesterday the cable man comes to my house to hook it up and it looks like a cable army in my driveway, three vans and three guys, what do they think they are going to do, hook up a skyscraper? I can see my landlady now, I bet she was hanging out her window trying to figure out what's going on, when she asks...and she will, I am going to tell her no we did not have the cable company here that I don't know what she is talking about then she will ask the neighbors and they will say no and the whole situation will drive her nuts. I live in a mobile home -but not a trashy one, it's the caddy of mobile homes (when it's clean and neat) I bought it brand new 4 years ago, notice how I am trying to justify the fact that I live in a trailer, but I rent the lot that it sits on, hense the nosey landlord. So, I'm not the best housekeeper, I try to keep it from getting too nasty and try to do a cleaning weekly, but we have alot of stuff not to mention all the ebay crap that I have to sell, dog hair floating around because yellow labs shed horribly and I hate cleaning. So I was quit embarrassed for the cable guys to be in my home, as I usually am embarrassed any time anyone comes over, but why is it that when you spend 8 hours cleaning your house and its spotless you never see a sole for weeks, and then when its totally trashed, bam! you have company and you are still in your jammies and no bra, awkward!

Ok, I started this post this morning from work and I had to stop it at least half a dozen times and now I am at home sitting in front of my laptop. I think from now on I will post from home. Now i'm on to my ebay account to sell some more junk....or goodies, depending on who you talk to. later!